Post by Admin on Apr 19, 2020 23:15:25 GMT
My problems started about six years ago, but everything came to a boiling point about three years ago. One day I was at school during P.E., and an intense sadness came over me. I felt as if the world slowed and I was so alone. That was the start of my 2-year long depression filled with self-harming habits that I have not entirely stop doing.
During my depression, I was in a perpetual state of fine and if I felt anything else I drowned it out with music, so even if I just felt fine all the time at least was not sad or anxious. I stopped taking care of myself and would not go out for months at a time. I rarely took showers or groomed at all. I ate unhealthy foods that later made me feel as if dying, but that did not stop me from eating them. I rarely exercised and when I got in a "good" mood it barely lasted five hours or so. I did start therapy although I feel like I am spiraling.
I hope some of my story helps you guys open up. You don't have to tell everything but just talking about the things you have been going through may help release pressure.
During my depression, I was in a perpetual state of fine and if I felt anything else I drowned it out with music, so even if I just felt fine all the time at least was not sad or anxious. I stopped taking care of myself and would not go out for months at a time. I rarely took showers or groomed at all. I ate unhealthy foods that later made me feel as if dying, but that did not stop me from eating them. I rarely exercised and when I got in a "good" mood it barely lasted five hours or so. I did start therapy although I feel like I am spiraling.
I hope some of my story helps you guys open up. You don't have to tell everything but just talking about the things you have been going through may help release pressure.
